What’s missing from my life? Hmm…. I’ve never had a relationship I’ve always wanted. I will explain why. I have never had a role model in my life who I could look at and say “Oh my god, they have had an amazing relationship”. I have never seen my parents happy, I’ve always seen my granny and my granddad bickering and my uncle and my aunty never holding hands. I have never had a family holiday. So, I think I am asking too much because I am looking for perfection and I could never achieve that because people say that a relationship is to, kind of, use each other. I don’t believe in it, I believe that relationships should be because you want to be with that person and unfortunately the domestic stuff brings its corrections into a relationship and different events happen, and you come back from work in a different mood.

But there is something I’m looking for, is that purity — when people are not afraid to say what they feel. Because we are so protected with spikes and we are so central inside, that sometimes people next to you could be the most important but we are afraid of something, we are afraid. I think people love cats and dogs more because they can’t get a “No” from them. And I think humans are so terrified of your response. That unconditional love towards the animals sometimes scares me.

I felt like I always prioritised relationships more than anything else and sometimes it worked in a damaging way because people are maybe not ready to take that, but then, then you learn but, if you can’t be yourself with the person you are with it’s not really working.